I Wish

I wish
it was January,
far away from these empty hollow holidays.
You
were all my holidays
from Thanksgiving
to Christmas
to New Year's in our kitchen, 
even Epiphany.
Any excuse 
for a holiday,
bright bonfires
on the beach,
Christmas ships
singing carols.
With you gone,
this time of year
is ashes
and silence.
It's always
the darkest time of the year
in my heart.