Monthly Archives: November 2018

Sadness

Sadnessisnotfleeting.Itisnota bird,visitingfor awhileandthengone.Sadnessis me,it istheholethatIinhabit.It isinmybones.Everycellis madeofsadness.Everycellhasyournameetchedonit.

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Paralyzed

every day I get up, have coffee, shower and prepare for the day but some days I cannot make it past the door the tears flow the breath stops and I cant there are so many things I want to … Continue reading

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Thanksgiving

There is no thanks to be giving today. I am thankful that I had him. It doesn’t make up for him being gone. Nothing does. I want to rage and scream and cry at the heavens for taking him. I … Continue reading

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Broken II

I am broken, a crippled, limping creature that cannot mend. Blood flows through my fingers, and all I wish is that it be a mortal wound. All I want for Christmas is to be dead. All I want is my … Continue reading

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broken

I am a thousand sparkling shards sharp, bloody, razor blades of glass and I will cut you to ribbons if you try to concern yourself with me. The only one who could put the pieces back together again is dead.

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Torture

Every day without you is torture. Not bamboo under the fingernails, not water dripping, other than tears. Just the slow, day by day pain of being without you. This is torture. This is hell. I’ll tell you anything you want … Continue reading

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Goodnight

Every night I pray not to wake up And every morning I think Damn. Someday I’ll wake up in your arms again. Til then, I live in hope, I live in hell. Goodnight, my darling. I loved you then I … Continue reading

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Missing you

I just miss you, to the center of these hollow bones, this hollow heart. I walk the empty hallways of my life and fall to my knees I wail to the stars, to whoever might listen, to you, that I … Continue reading

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Grief

You tell me your grief is profound for the planet, for the election, for life on earth. I tell you that you don’t know what grief is. Come walk with my bleeding feet, come live my empty life, come have … Continue reading

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anniversary

Today. 15 years since you asked me to marry you. 15 years since I said yes. And today, all I can think of is that you’re out there somewhere without me And I need to be with you. I can’t … Continue reading

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