Monthly Archives: May 2018

My love

He was my light. Every lovely thing, every good time was linked to him, part of him. No shadows dared tread where we passed. With him gone, night has truly fallen and all is draped in shadow. The candle is … Continue reading

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Words

All of these well meaning words, soft and seemingly easy to digest, are razor blades to my soul. When all I want is to die to end to stop to find my way back to him, all the words in … Continue reading

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Today

“How are you today?” How am I every day? Alone. Adrift in a sea of grief. Bleeding from countless wounds you cannot see. Wanting nothing more than to die, knowing that my beloved is on the other side of that … Continue reading

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Beyond

My love is beyond my sight, my touch, my hearing. Can he see me? Is he watching me bleed without him? Does he try to comfort me in the night, when all I can do is cry? Just wait for … Continue reading

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Loss

This is a loss that guts me. It’s a knife that cuts to the bone to the soul that leaves me in tatters. People seem to think that it’s fixable, with a band-aid or a counselor or drugs or time. … Continue reading

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Life

What is life anymore, but a waystation? I wait for death, for my beloved. Only when I am back in his arms, will I live again. Until then, it’s one long ride on the Metro, with no exit

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In my darkness

This box of ashes is cold comfort. I sleep with it on the table next to me, next to pictures of us, next to a lock of your hair. I am only real in your arms. I only exist without … Continue reading

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