Monthly Archives: July 2018

Wanting

What I want, truly, above all else, is to sit next to you, your arm around me as we gaze out at the sea, as the mountains crumble and the stars fall into each other. At the end of the … Continue reading

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Dying

I have to tell you I’m not depressed, I’m waiting. I’m not brave, I’m putting one foot in front of the other while I have to. And every day when I wake up, I say, “Fuck. Still alive.” And every … Continue reading

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Undone

Unraveled undone a mess of disparate pieces with no way to reconnect them. My baby was my anchor. He held me to reality to a life worth living. It’s all ashes now, dried leaves that skitter across the sidewalk and … Continue reading

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Morning/Mourning

And in the morning, I sit and drink my coffee. And miss you. Your alarm clock, long turned off, still plays messages for me, and I listen and weep, and turn it off again. Your chair is empty, your reading … Continue reading

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Gutted. I have no clever words today, no poetic turn to mask my grief. I have only fist pounding as I collapse to the floor, screaming for him until my throat is raw with sorrow. Anyone who tells you that … Continue reading

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This is me

And I am in despair. Yet, there are those that insist I help them overcome their grief. He was MY husband. You may have played music with him 20+ years ago, but he was MY love, MY partner, and how … Continue reading

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