Monthly Archives: June 2018

My Day

Every day I wake up and think, “damn.” When I realize that I’m still alive and likely to be so all day, I have coffee I shower I put makeup on, and try to face another day without him. It’s … Continue reading

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Holes

I have a sadness too heavy for words, a hole where heart and soul once dwelled. My love is dead and there is no light can penetrate this darkness, too heavy, too much to bear.

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Broken

I am broken. Heart, soul, spirit are shattered without you. I am hollow, a shell without a centre, a husk without substance without you. You were the best part of everything, Earth Moon Sun Stars Me.

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sorry

Sorry for your loss as if I’ve lost my keys, a favourite shirt, but not my love my life my everything. And they don’t want to go into detail. Leave it sterile, clean, no real emotions to muddy up their … Continue reading

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life

I wake up crying most days. Okay, all of them. I stick my face in your closet for the smell of you lingers there. Your desk is the same. Your side of the table. And I sleep on the couch. … Continue reading

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Distilling

They brought a box by the house the other day. Your “belongings” from work. Amazing, isn’t it, that 13 years can be distilled into one box. Ordinary things, a snapshot of work life. But one thing brought me to my … Continue reading

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you

And are you 20 again, or 37 like when I met you? And will you still love me when I cross that final barrier, far older? Or will I turn 27 again and we’ll have all the time we missed? … Continue reading

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