Category Archives: anger

Lectures

Posted on November 24, 2021 by shadowalking

Why do some people feel the need to lecture me on how to grieve? “He would want you to be happy,” “He wouldn’t want you to suffer,” and the first thought I had was, “Well, then he shouldn’t have died.” … Continue reading →

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Exhaustion

Posted on February 18, 2019 by shadowalking

I amsotiredof all thiswell-meaningignorancethis arrogantassumptionthat they know betterthanIaboutmy grief.All I needistocomfort others.All I needistomove on.Buttruly,all I needisSteve.

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Thanksgiving

Posted on November 22, 2018 by shadowalking

There is no thanks to be giving today. I am thankful that I had him. It doesn’t make up for him being gone. Nothing does. I want to rage and scream and cry at the heavens for taking him. I … Continue reading →

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Angry

Posted on November 1, 2018 by shadowalking

I can be so very angry. Sure, tell me about how hard your life is, how your knees hurt, how you’re a hoarder with too much stuff, how tired you are, how the universe is out to get you, how … Continue reading →

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Tell me

Posted on September 9, 2018 by shadowalking

Tell me how your grief is like mine. You lost a boyfriend in high school forty years ago and tell me that you know about grief. Tell me how you lost your first boyfriend to police gunfire. Thirteen bullet wounds … Continue reading →

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