Monthly Archives: June 2018

Breathing

I breathe. I go about the day. But I do not live. Living is for people with a future ahead. I have the black. Until I cross the last river, I have the black. And so, I breathe, for now.

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I am

I am that caged bird. But I do not sing. My voice was for him, every note matched by his, by the sweetness of his guitar. They are silent now, as is he, and I find that I have lost … Continue reading

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And so…

… another day ends. Another day without him. Another day of getting by. I live for the day he comes for me. I will slip the bonds that hold me here, so fast. To be with him again is everything.

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day

And another day. I wake up and you’re not there. What’s the point? I get up because it’s expected. I know that you expect it. And I get through the day, hoping that I can die. Hoping the day ends … Continue reading

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night

It’s a night with no stars, no moon, no light to ease the loneliness, the utter aloneness I feel without him. We were everything together, living in each other’s pocket. And now, that pocket is missing. Being alone is living … Continue reading

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help

I don’t need help. My love, my life has been dead for 2 months. And I’m supposed to be over it? How does one get over losing one’s life one’s heart one’s soul? If you think I can you are … Continue reading

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I didn’t think it was possible to cry this much, to be this sad about anything or anyone. But my tears are a fountain of despair of longing, of loneliness for the one person who can make it all just … Continue reading

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