Monthly Archives: May 2018

Tears

I am made of tears these days, a seemingly endless fountain of grief. Is it wrong to want to be with him? Is it wrong to want to die? I move through the days, doing the things I must, the … Continue reading

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Ashes

We had such plans, so many places to see so many things to do, all dust and ashes now. Without you, Paris is just a town, traveling cross-country is a chore. You were the light in everything, the reason the … Continue reading

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The Dark

This darkness. This black. I look inward and black is all I see. My soul is a void. Bottomless. Filled with sorrow. I wait for Death. I long for that cold embrace. Every night, when I go to bed, I … Continue reading

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Grief

Grief. It is not something you go through. It is me. It is what I am. I am grief. It is etched on every bone. It is tattooed on every inch of skin. I am tears and loss and loneliness. … Continue reading

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My beloved

Stephen John Patrick Lalor Stephen John Patrick Lalor, musician extraordinaire, best of friends, loving husband, brother, uncle, son-in-law and bandmate, has left the building. He was born in Glens Falls, NY, in 1944, as he liked to say, “The last … Continue reading

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Death and The Edge of Madness

Death seems to be a constant companion of mine. But now, oh sweet heaven, it has taken my beloved Steve, the sweetest man in the universe. Kind, gentle, generous, the very best of men. And to die while I was … Continue reading

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